Goodbye, endings

You now seem a distant star.

Our connection -

A reality that only you and I know about.

It isn’t because I don’t want to share it,

But because until now, it’s like it’s meant to be kept,

Meant to be hidden.

Every moment I spent with you was like the first and last time I get to be with you.

It was always like the first and the last... every time. Every single time.

Those moments always seemed like a fresh new ending.

I come to you as if it would be the last,

Until it really was.

Now, at this moment, as I try to forget you, the more I remember you.

I know I have to.

I have to go back to my memories so I know what I would want to leave behind.

I am releasing you.

I am releasing what I used to love,

Even myself when I was with you.

I am letting go.

I let go because it still hurts and I don’t want that anymore.

I am releasing all my fresh new endings with you,

So I can welcome beginnings for myself.

I love... and loved you.