For Now...

I can’t just sit in the comfort of my own home and pretend that I’m okay. A week has passed since the enhanced community quarantine has been implemented in our country. I occasionally deactivate my FB account just so I couldn’t have the access to what is happening in the world (at least what the media is projecting to the people). I just sit outside the house and just be with myself and enjoy the silence. But I can’t do that anymore.

I AM BREAKING.

Death tolls aren’t just numbers. They are people. They were people just like you and me. They had something they cherished. They had something and someone they worked hard for all their lives. They might have planned on going on a family trip next month, or treat their mom to an ice cream parlor, or planned to spend some more time with their children to play after all this is over. Some died saving others’ lives and forgot that they too are vulnerable, that they too, are mere mortals. They had someone they loved - a cat, a dog, a son or daughter, a mother, a husband. They had something they held dear in their hearts. They aren’t just numbers. They were people who once were breathing, smiling, dancing, loving, like us.

My heart is breaking and I cannot pretend that it isn’t. So now, I just cry with the mourners. I just cry with families who were not able to see their loved ones even in their last breaths, who were not able to stay by their sides to hear their last words, who were not able to hold their hands to make them feel that they were loved, that they were not alone. Today, I cry with them. I mourn with them. I grieve with them and at least try, try with faith to send them healing, compassion and love as they too are trying to fight this unseen enemy for whatever is left of them.

Let us be vulnerable yet strong in these times.

Let us send energies of comfort and strength to all the people around us,

Even in silence.